Gary Grant

The Guilt of leaving a crisis... The other day I needed to leave Bairnsdale and the relief centre for the fires..and I left behind a group of people still serving.  I felt guilty about that. I also noticed others going through similar feelings of needing to be present and active amongst the trauma situations. I am guessing at times we all feel like that.  I could have, should have, would have.... But none of us are super human and if we go too hard for too long we will all crumble and then others have to pick it up anyway. Why is it we cant live balanced lives ?  Why is it that we live with this guilt and almost a savior complex ? Like the situation will be better if we are there ? I think deep down inside of us each we want to help others. I think its because we want, deep down, to be a part of the solution and not add to the problem. (Just my thoughts no expert advice here) The problem is, if we work too hard for too long, we get grumpy and

I start this new year 2020, January 1... with some positive hopes and dreams.. I want my life to win, to be optimistic and positive. I want to defeat some inner challenges and to try and combat the ways I handle things around me. I have a good wife, an amazing family, we each have some huge challenges ... but it (the challenges)doesn’t need to stay that way, we can all win and I seriously hope for 2020 that in fact that is the case. Wins for each of us. One of my plans for 2020 is to record a daily journal of thoughts and observations. 365 days of opportunity. A blank canvas. Waiting to be written each and every day. It is up to me how I live it and what I do with my own 365 days. It’s up to us each . We all have exactly the same amount of hours and days to live out, and until we are called home... it is up to each of us in how we will live out those days. 2019, and even 2018 were incredibly challenging ministry years for me (us) but one of the brilliant things about