The final..alone me... Conclusion.
In just a couple of days I will be re-united with the beautiful Jules. However, I am struggling tonight with the feelings I have, and the thoughts. I feel like the enemy has pulled out all stops again, against me... It's been a good day, good crowds in church in both services, holidays approach, and yet Satan is still trying to sow seeds of doubt and fear and abandonment into me. It's been 2 months alone, and I am unsure it's a totally good concept. Perhaps In a few months time, it will all be forgotten, however it is all a bit real tonight and all a bit weird. I don't like it. I don't like what I am feeling. God has been at work in my heart. And my mind. I am changed. Big things have happened in me. I have coped ok, but the truth is I have just missed her too much... And yeah I know it's just a few more short days, and yes it is... But it doesn't change what is being thrown at me right now... She is not like me. She doesn't make the...