Gary Grant

I feel like I am on the edge. Not the edge of a cliff, or tall building about to fall off, but on the edge of something bigger and better in my life . It's not the best feeling, because its neither here nor there. Have you ever felt it ? You know the feeling that if something doesnt happen you could fail or fall, or worse still, start living in a rut of mundane-ness ? and yet, if something does happen, you may or may not be able to handle it, but it sure looks better than what you currently are doing. Well I feel like I am on the edge of something better than what I personally experience right now. It's a kind of spiritual thing, but also a deeply personal thing. Its a sense that I cannot remain in the situation I am in, but also that I have no control ( In some ways) about what should or could happen next. I want to get off the edge and into the "new thing", but there is still this nagging doubt, this feeling of the fear of the unknown, a fear of failure, a

I havent blogged for some time, actually since ICO finished, so it's time again to share my opinions and feelings and beliefs about life and what is going on myself and around me these days. I have discovered a lot of new things about myself over the past weeks and months, some of which is quite challenging... these things include these 3 hot topics in my life right now: 1. My own personal self view.... how I view myself, and sometimes how I compare myself with others. (which is not a good thing to do by the way) But I am pretty sure we have all been guilty of that at one time or another. So, here are some of the things I have learned about myself: (a) sometimes I view myself as inferior to others, you know, worse than, or less smart or less attractive (lol) or other things... (b) I have also worked out that sometimes I am wrong and right in my own self estimation. (c) OK, I am not the smartest, most best looking bloke that ever walked the planet, but I am fearfully and wonderfu